Greg Says:
So today I took off work for my birthday and woke up with a little funk. So part of it could have been the Tylenol PM to get me to sleep because of the headache, but it was also just a wake up to the feeling like there was less of a point and I was going to be bored with life. I missed Africa and feeling like I was making a significant difference. I was pissed off that I felt like there are less opportunities to make a difference and more time to just do meaningless toil (aka, projects for work). And strange as it was, I was weepy all morning. The worst part about it was I couldn't connect it to much of anything. It was nice to talk to a friend who had visited Africa and laughed as he remembered having a similar transition response and described a similar response from another mutual friend. So if you feel weepy about almost nothing at all, it's alright, its normal.
Its been hard to feel like the mold I used to fit in at work, school and all of life. It made me want to change something drastic instead of pushing out the boundaries of the molds I have.
I heard a good message about courage from my pastor on Sunday. It was pretty good. He asked us to think about our biggest fears. I left thinking about how traveling to Uganda ended up taking a chunk out of many of my major fears. That wasn't why I went. At decision time, it was simple obedience what God was calling me to. And now, I'm going through the thick of the transition. This should be interesting..... More to come.
- Greg
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I will echo the weepy thing. Yesterday I was ready to be angry or sad or something, but I had no real reason why. I eneded up letting it out on someone who did not deserve it. I need to be more aware of how I am feeling. Tough stuff.
That last comment was me, I am new to this whole blog thing. God Bless,
Aaron
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